Begin the Begin

Fresh starts thanks to the calendar they happen every year —just set your watch to January, our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of new years resolutions, put your past behind you and start over. It’s hard to resist the chance of a new beginning, a chance to put the problems of last year to bed.

All I want is for 2010 to end on a good note. A month away before 2010 ends, i can't help but look back at this year and reflect. I realised that I have a lot of good things going on for me, I also have a lot of unpleasant things. But that's life, isn't it? When you choose to look past certain things (negative, unhappy) and not talk about it, what does that mean? That you are just contended the way it is right now or you can't simply be bothered?  Some things in life are worth holding on to, some are not. And I wonder, what are the determining factors for that? 


Maybe I am contented the way things are right now... And hey, one of the best things that happened to me is moving here. Reason being.... that's only for me to know. 

Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not on the calendar, it’s not a birthday, it’s not a new year, it’s an event —big or small, something that changes us, ideally it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to.

Owner of a Lonely Heart

Forty years ago, the Beatles asked the world a simple question: they wanted to know where all the lonely people came from. My latest theory is that a great many of the lonely people come from hospitals. More precisely, the surgical wing of hospitals. As surgeons, we ignore our own needs so we can meet our patients' needs. We ignore our friends and families so we can save other people's friends and families. Which means that, at the end of the day, all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that.

To document the day we adopted Russell (he was known as Jasper in the animal shelter)...  

28.09.2010

Four hundred years ago, another well-known English guy had an opinion on being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course it was fancier when he said it. No man is an island entire unto himself. Boil down that island talk and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone. And who's to say that someone can't have four legs. Someone to play with, or run around with, or just hang out.

Much too Much

How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask... And when is it all just too much to bear?

Bro said that my blog is dead and to be honest, I have absolutely no inspiration on what to write. A day-to-day documentation of my life would be too boring for everyone. Its always the same thing, work, work,work and more workkkkkkkk....Somehow, I find it ironic how, supposedly a blog is for you to pen down your thoughts, emotions and feelings but yet, somehow, sometimes... it is just not possible. 

I've learned so much about life within the 1 year span that I've spent here. I learned to appreciate the fact that in life, you give and take. And you just have to learn how to let go. Not that I don't know about this since my dad always teaches us about that. But, the art of letting go, be it in any situation, is not easy at all. Letting go of the fact that you get maligned for some f-up situation at work? Not easy. Yet, being here... somehow, I mastered it. I guess, its the environment and survival instincts. I learned that some people are just bullshit and they will always be, no matter how much hope you place in them that they are not as bad as they seem. But bullshit will always be bullshit. A leopard will never change its spots. I learned that some things in life, may seem important at certain points and it doesn't feel good to have to let it go, but you actually feel better after while and you will actually be glad that you did it. I learned that no matter what nonsense or shit another person can say about you, that's because they are the same and when they put you down first, they are being "cleared" of those things. I learned that some people, some people are never meant to be in your life as a permanent fixtures. They are just stops along the way in your life to experience different things. I learned that no matter what others think of you, and treat you as though you are nothing when you have poured in everything for them, you are worth more than what they are. I learned that some times, when things get so frustrating, all you have to do is to go back to your desk, put on your earphones, listen to some songs and everything will be ok again. I learned that, even though someone is your "superior", it doesn't mean that they are always right and will not make any mistakes. They do because they are human.

I learned that life is too short, to have all these issues troubling me.

 

Thanks for the Memories

Gratitude, appreciation, giving thanks. No matter what words you use, they all mean the same thing. Happy. We're supposed to be happy. Grateful for friends, family. Happy just to be alive. Whether we like it or not.

By now, if you are a great Grey's Anatomy fan like me; you'd have realized that all my entry title is actually the episode title. I don't know how but everytime I start an entry, the quote seems to fit exactly what I'm feeling at the moment or what I want to say... The most ironic thing is, this particular episode reminds me why I am unhappy... because of something that was said before.

I know I have been saying this over and over again but it has been a tough month for me, emotionally. But I guess, it's all better now. Sometimes in life, when you let things go and not take it too literally, it's always a bit easier. I'm not saying to be totally nonchalant but just bit a teeny weeny bit detached from those things that are making you unhappy. I wish I can put into words exactly what I'm feeling but I think its better left unsaid. 

I look at things around me, and I wonder... Should I be happy with all that I have now? Yes, I do... I'm actually grateful (note that it's gratitude) because it actually made me realized and see things that, even though I don't want to... I did. 

Well... Life... there's always light at the end of the tunnel. 

Never realized how crooked my jaw is until this picture... Guess I will always be perfectly imperfect.

Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate. 

Let It Be

In the eighth grade my English class had to read Romeo & Juliet. Then for extra credit, Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts. Sal Scafarillo was Romeo. As fate would have it, I was Juliet… all the other girls were jealous, but I had a slightly different take. I told Mrs. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. For starters she falls for the one guy she knows she can’t have, then she blames fate for her own bad decision. Mrs. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play choice sometimes goes out the window. At the ripe old age of 13 I was very clear that love like life is about making choices. And fate has nothing to do with it. Everyone thinks it’s so romantic, Romeo and Juliet, true love, how sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink the bottle of poison, and go to sleep in a mausoleum, she deserved whatever she got. 

Growing up, nobody told me how life would be like when you gets older. I always believe that life is all about fate & destiny and that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes, people tell me I think too much... sometimes people tell me that I should be contented with what I have and life, well... is life. 

I felt depressed for a few days now, I cried for a few nights, I slept, I wake, I showered, I ate, I went to work and I did everything that I should do and everyone expects me to do. And I wondered, if I am existing in a dream and not reality (watching Inception made it worse). This morning, I was talking to my director about a project and I don't know why, the familiar ache came crawling back, gripping my heart so tightly that for a moment, that moment, I couldn't breathe. And I felt my nose crinkling and my eyes becoming watery. Yes, I wanted to cry. Right there and then. For reasons, only God knows. I came out of his room (of course, I didn't cry in front of him! I am too tough for that) and begin to work with a vengeance. Then, I opened up my msn and begin to talk to a friend I just got to know recently (2 weeks to be precise). Speaking of which, don't you think it's funny? How you can know someone for such a short time yet, you felt as though you guys are meant to be friends or seem to be friends for a really long time already. 

And so, I began chatting with her. I didn't even begin to say anything but only to tell her I am depressed. I don't know why I did that, especially to someone I just knew! But right at that moment, I think I can tell her and I hope she would understand. I was tearing when I was talking to her and I barely told her my story. Went out for lunch, came back and continued my sob story with her. And something that she told me, touches the very raw chord of my heart. She said "one never really heals, you just change". How true is that? I realized that I've changed so much over the recent years and I am not sure if that made me a better person, or not?

I'm not going into the long grandmother story on the reasons why I am depressed but I definitely felt better after talking to her. Well, tomorrow is a brand new day and life is good, despite all these bullshit!

My fringe is so long now!

Maybe Romeo and Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while, and then their time passed. If they could have known that beforehand, maybe it all would have been okay. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was grown up, I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone, and that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even now, I believe that for the most part, love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending...most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway.

Something to Talk About

Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.

Some things are better left unsaid.

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say because there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

Into You like A Train

Meredith: In general, people can be categorized in one of two ways — those who love surprises and those who don't. I don't. I've never met a surgeon that enjoys a surprise, because as surgeons, we like to be in the know. We have to be in the know, because when we aren't, people die and lawsuits happen. Am I rambling? I think I'm rambling. Okay, so my point, actually, and I do have one, has nothing to do with surprises or death or lawsuits, or even surgeons. My point is this: whoever said "What you don't know can’t hurt you", was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. Okay, fine. Maybe it's the second worst.

As surgeons, there are so many things we have to know. We have to know we have what it takes. We have to know how to take care of our patients... and how to take care of each other. Eventually, we even have to figure out how to take care of ourselves. As surgeons we have to be in the know. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark, because in the dark there may be fear, but there's also hope.

Bring the Pain

Pain, it comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains that we live with everyday. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else; makes the rest of your world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anaesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it... and for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.

Went to Russ's friend's house yesterday for a BBQ and I told Russ that I miss my friends... especially my BFF. Whatsapp the BFF and told her how I feel and realized that I am not alone, in the way I am feeling and missing her.

Sometimes in life, you find someone that you know in the very core of your soul that "ah, there she/he is... my friend, my soulmate, my sister...the part in my life that is irreplaceable..." 

 Living apart in 2 different countries, 2 different continents and 2 different time zones, we are 2 souls forging forward as one... Fighting for our lives, our careers and happiness. We are both at a seemingly different yet similar stage of our lives, without each other physically around. Somehow, I really feel that when you reach a certain age or stage in your life, making friends seem to become a challenge. To me, at least. When the bff told me about how "a part of us is missing", I couldn't agree more. There are things that our colleagues or acquaintances or friends and even boyfriends, cannot fulfill. Things are that "special" just between those best friends. 

Honestly, ever since I moved here, I never stop telling Russ how much I wish the bff is here with me. There's so much things I want to show her and share with her. I even tried to persuade the bff's bf (hahahaha) to move here so that we can all be together but as he said "it is not realistic right now"... =( I cannot deny that I feel sad and I am so selfish, hoping that my bff doesn't have those liability (ahhahahahah IT'S ALL MR LEE'S FAULT AND THAT STUPID HOUSE) so she could just move here easily, anytime with my god son. Hhaha but realistically, I know it is not possible and I will wait patiently. 

Well, we never know what's gonna happen in 3 years' time! 

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it, and life always makes more. 

Deny Deny Deny

We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?

Unashamed - Starfield

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

You may think you have challenges, but you have so many blessings. Sometimes it takes only a moment of conscious effort to recognize those blessings. Once you focus on the gifts instead of the problems, your whole perspective will change and you will see blessings everywhere. 

Make Me Lose Control

I cried on Saturday... after so long. I went to the patio, sat down on the ledge and stared out. I felt the familiar aching... I felt my nose feeling weird, I felt my heart crying... and I cried. I thought I wouldn't... but I did and I lose control. Revisiting the past always make me feel as though my whole world is crashing down, again and again.

You'll always be my baby, Dawn...

No one likes to lose control, but as a surgeon there's nothing worse. It's a sign of weakness, of not being up to the task. And still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning and you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell. If there's an upside to free-falling, it's the chance you give your friends to catch you.

Enough Is Enough (No More Tears)

So, Russ was away for the last weekend on a business trip to Seattle and look what he got me!!!! 

Grey's Anatomy Scrubs!!!

 *Ignore the mess, we are going to move out soon thus the craziness!

Hhahaa, I know Calvin will love this too but that was the last set and it was Large!! But I give Russ extra brownie points for remembering what I like and getting it for me (this was a total surprise, unlike the rose incident.. hahahahah). 

 

There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless. And all we want, is more.

 *Edited at 4:30pm

I just read about a girl committing suicide over her broken relationship with her boyfriend. I went to the Facebook page created by her friends in memory of her and I cried going through her pictures. I don't know her personally but I cried for her pain because I can relate to it. If a broken relationship is really what caused her death, I wished that she didn't do it. My close friends know that I went through a really difficult and tough time 2 years ago and every time I think about it, I can still feel that pain. The saddest thing was, I almost took my life because of the failed relationship as well. If not for my best friends who stood by me, carried me through and was there every step of the healing process (and T, whom I knew through her blog and me randomly writing to her... I wrote about her few entries back), I don't think I would be where I am today. 

I don't think anyone could really understand the pain that the girl must have gone through. In the news article, the media mentioned that the girl blogged about her fearing that she might not be able to love again... All of which, the exact same things... I've told my friends. I wished that she was stronger though and that she had looked for someone to talk it through and most of all, I wished that she didn't take her life away. Because, she would be able to see how beautiful her life would turn out to be without that person she thinks she love with her life & might in it. She will learned that despite the broken heart, the pain, the aching, the tears... Life is worth living. I loved that man with all my heart, all my might, with my life... he broke my heart, left me thinking that life is no longer worth living and that I can NEVER EVER love anyone else. I remember telling Calvin that after loving someone so much, I don't know how it would be ever possible to love someone else with such passion or the same, needless to say to love more. But I learned that it's possible. Because you love the new person with a different kind of love and you can love the person even more. 

CL told me (2 years ago) that one day when I look back at the things I've done, tears that I've cried, insults & injustice that I've put up with... everything... I will look back and laugh. Laugh at how stupid and silly I was. And when I told him I am in a new relationship, he asked me if I feel that way... I do. Honestly, I do. Even though I don't regret doing all those things that I've done, trying to get that man back in my life and trying to take my life away... But I do feel kinda silly. But I guess, that was part of the process... to get over a broken heart. And she who chose to do it, must have taken a lot of courage to. She left behind more broken hearts than she can imagine... I hope, the pain and hurt for her, is gone now. 

 Love, is not love if you have never experience heartache...  

Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head

Just a random update... Geez, I cannot even remember when all these things took place!
 Start spamming with my narcissistic images of what I wore... I'm really so proud of myself because I have been exhausting all the clothes I have and trying to wear the same thing a few times (which I never did in the past... I normally wear the same clothes probably months later!). Or probably because I only have those few pieces suitable for the cold weather? Hhahahaa


Week of 5th April - 9th April...

So... sometime last week, I dig out the box of instant ramen that I bought when I was transiting in the Narita airport during my last trip back to SG. Decided to cook it for dinner since it was going to expire soon.

Comes in 4 different flavour... Read it yourself.

We always have some random side dishes... in this case, Russ' favourite roast duck from Marina (Hahha nowadays when I buy food, I always imagine what Calvin might wanna eat when she visits!)

Not to forget the staples, random kind of Kimchi!!!

I love this top sooooooooo much although its really short and if I were to wear it with anything that's not high-waisted, my tatt will be revealed.

Sorry, my house lighting is too crappy and I'm using my iphone.. Hahha

The skirt below is different from what I'm wearing up there! But I know, can't tell... crap

Random pictures of flowers I took outside of the apartment... SPRING TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back to me...

Spammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

And Russ bought me a stalk of rose! He actually called me on his way home and ask me if I am hungry because he is going to buy me a rose and will be late for 10mins. Some kind of surprise huh?

Okkkkkkkkk, last picture!!! Taken yesterday... the weather was gorgeous... Or should I say, HOT?! We went to test drive a few BMWs (Russ did...even though I'm the one buying. Hahha) but I've more or less decided on what I want!

Who's Zoomin' Who?

One thing is certain, whatever it is we're trying to hide; we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets – like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until you don't have room for anything else, until you're so full of secrets you feel like you're going to burst.

So I was having a conversation with Tammy yesterday about work, life balance and it got me thinking.

My conversation with Tammy was basically about how she feels that she has been spending too much time at work, leaving her with no time to do other stuff. And more importantly, she felt that what she really wants now, is to get hitched. I basically told her that it's something that I think about but definitely not within the next few months, or 1 - 2 years. Reason being? I want to focus on my career. Now, before you start screaming at me and calling me a career minded WOman, I do have some reasons why. Well, you see... In the past, I wanted to get married when I turn 25, have kids when I am 28 and yadah yadah. But I met that bastard, thought I had everything going for me... Great bf, new career...fantastic relationship... all when I was 24. I had happy times and in fact, I couldn't be any happier when I was with him.

Then, everything came crashing down. 

And life changed for me. 

I threw myself into my new job, worked endlessly and tirelessly. Just so I can forget things, pull myself up and carry on with life. My whole point of saying all these is... the main gist of our conversation was that we came to a conclusion that things always happen at a certain timing, all planned. Simply put, everything happens for a reason. I am a firm believer of that and it's something I bear in mind, whenever something happen. 

 

If that bastard haven't left me in that state, I probably wouldn't have gained all the things I have today.

1. I worked my ass off and got promoted within a year. I was also the top performer of the global team (more than 50 of us, both SG & TW ... our scores are being used to pit against each other). Work got better each year and finally, I realized my dream to work in another country!!

2. I had the chance to travel every 3 months, getting to know some really good friends from TW.

3. I found a great friend in CL, he was the one who encouraged me, pull me up and told me that I will regret crying over that useless man when I look back after a few years (and yes, CL... you're damn right!). 

4. My friendship with Serenity was strengthen and I found my soulmate back even though we weren't in the best situation at that point of time. I came to realise that a true friend will never leave you, no matter what and she proved it. I remembered the countless emails, sms, rushing down to my side, watch me cry, cry with me, cried for me, laugh with me, get angry for me and be happy for me. I can never asked for more. 

5. I know how much my friends love me... Chewy & Stanley who came over to my place in the middle of the night, slept at the staircase area because I refused to let them in. Who continuously encourage me and scolded me when I needed waking up. CK who always give me the harshest words but all for my own good.

6. My family. 'Nuff said. 

7.  A friendship formed over the Internet where I wrote to a complete stranger who actually took time to respond to me and encourage me. I never knew that she was going through a hard time in her marriage at that time as well and is really grateful and guilty at the same time. Guilty that she still have to comfort me despite her own situation. Grateful that she responded and made a difference in my life. She's really happy right now and she deserves it for being the wonderful person she is.

8.  New found relationship with God. 

9. Russ... (it's been 7 months now!)

10. Finding myself, all over again. 

I'm thankful for all of the above and if I have to go through what I've went through before, I would take it on again. But this time round, I'll be the tough bitch that everyone knows. =)

Save Me

So, this post is dedicated to my bro, CK because we were chatting online and I told him that I need to shit and he wants me to blog first. But anyways, I already shat so I'm blogging right now. HAHAHAHAH I know I am seriously the most disgusting girl around (Russ never fails to remind me) because I am very open about talking about shit, pee and what-nots.

Ok, so all these pictures are not in order 'cause I cannot really remember when I took them.

Took this while I was cooking curry for my colleagues... The tomato was in a heart shape when I cut it into half!

And we have a new addition to our house, Orchids! Russ likes them so I got it for him... Told you that he is a Singaporean at heart @@ The messy thing in the background is a computer that Russ set up for the TV and the LCD...

And we ate yummy ramen!!

Some random pictures...  I actually wore the zebra dress today. LOL
OH, we got a mirror!!!!!!!! Thanks to Russ' mama... she gives us everything, hahaha everyweek we'll go back to his house for dinner and steal things back to use. On another note, I think I'm really lucky because Russ' family is really nice to me. I think I've never hug my family members or anyone as much as his family!

Ok, now here comes the highlight of my weekend... We went to Carmel!! Which was gorgeousssssssssssss... I don't feel like I'm in the States at all and I kept telling Russ that its so European, as though I'm back in Paris!

On our way... the weather was great that day!!!

After a 1.5hrs drive, we got to Carmel!!!!

Serenity, doesn't this look like Cottesloe when we drove in???

Touristy shot...............

Russ loves his Havianas from SG!

Ok, I think I've put on weight again. FAT FACE ALERT.

I'm lazy so I'll post the rest of the pictures up on facebook!

16 March 2010

Baileys baby is a big girl now!

The Self Destruct Button

 don't know what to write but I still wanna post an entry just for the heck of it....
Flood this post with my pictures... But then again, I haven't been taking pictures in the morning these few days as I've been taking a colleague's car to work instead of Russ'.

BTW, WASSUP WITH GREY'S ANATOMY?? I didn't watch it for a while and all of a sudden, there's all these new people in the show. Geez...

These are what I wore last week.... Anyway, I'm like trying to wear different clothes everyday to see if I can wear all the clothes I have (I have clothes that I wore like once or twice or NEVER!). So, let's see if I can keep up with that...

Man, my proportions look weird in this photo... But the point is, look at how I tied my scarf... I learned it from my favourite website. I know you can't really tell how it's like in the picture but compare it to the other picture where I have the same leopard print scarf in a different color. Hahaha

Man... I have been wearing this pair of boots to death. Its soooooooo comfortable and great looking.

Took this in the toilet because I didn't take a picture in the morning... I was wearing purple thighs!

Did I mention that I cooked fish curry and it turned out to be a huge success? I'm so freaking proud of myself.

This prata is for Russ... He loves prata (I think he is a Singaporean at heart).

Our dinner...

Fish curry... Just because it's sooooooooooooooooooooo good.

Made stewed pork ribs with carrots... Originally wanted to make soup with the ribs but because we slow-cooked it, it became too oily so I drained out the soup and added soy sauce, sesame sauce and dark soy sauce.

And lastly... Had steak on Monday night while watching Gossip Girl! =)

Ok, Its 5:37 and I can't wait to go home. WHY IS TIME PASSING SO SLOWLY???  Russ is going San Francisco tonight to meet up with some random people for drinks and what not. Wish I'm in Singapore right now so I can call Chewy to meet up at Tampines.

sigh...

p.s: wish me luck! We are trying to complete the apartment by this weekend because everyone has been asking us when they can come over. Need to get dresser, shoes rack, plants and hopefully we are done!

Oh OHOHOHOHO! Forgot to include these images (WE BOUGHT A BED!!! Tempur Pedic... Its been good so far but we'll see...since we have 100 days return policy)

CL, can you remember these bedsheets?!?!?!?!? You were with me at the John Little expo sale and helped me chose it!

We threw everything on the floor so we can put the bedsheets in... And you can see how the wardrobe looks like. We are sharing it now and it's barely enough to fit all my stuff. SIAN

It feels a bit weird sleeping on this initially cause the mattress mold into shape with your body but it's really comfortable after a while..

All set up and ready! It's funny cause when you buy a bed here, they give you a "box" and a metal frame for free... See that white/beige thing below the mattress? That's the "box" and it adds height to the mattress with the frame so you don't really buy a standard bed frame. I wanna get one cause I think it looks funny with a headboard and stuff but I guess I can wait since this works well now and we can get a proper frame if I decided to stay here for the rest of my freaking life..........................

Ok, so this is really the end of my random post. Oh.. and it's 6:09 already...going to bug Russ to bring me to get du buk ki AGAIN!