Make Me Lose Control

I cried on Saturday... after so long. I went to the patio, sat down on the ledge and stared out. I felt the familiar aching... I felt my nose feeling weird, I felt my heart crying... and I cried. I thought I wouldn't... but I did and I lose control. Revisiting the past always make me feel as though my whole world is crashing down, again and again.

You'll always be my baby, Dawn...

No one likes to lose control, but as a surgeon there's nothing worse. It's a sign of weakness, of not being up to the task. And still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning and you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell. If there's an upside to free-falling, it's the chance you give your friends to catch you.