The First Cut is the Deepest

Today, I experienced one of the most touching moments of my life. I see how my best friend (Serenity), my brother's girlfriend (Jess) and my sister tried to help me without any hesitation. But what matters to me most right at the moment was, my sister's reaction when I told her I needed help.

No questions asked, no reservation and she jumped right into the situation to help me. All these, make me feel like a failure as a sister. Many would know that my sister and I are not on good talking terms and it was not until recently when I have to move away because of work, we became better. It has been more than 10 years and more often than not, my father will always tell me that nothing else hurts him more than seeing his 2 daughters on bad terms.

I tried to salvage the relationship many times but at the same time, I know I didn't put in that much of an effort as I should. But I remember when I learned of her breakup with her ex boyfriend (from Jess... hahaha she pao tor!), I was crying when I was telling Serenity and Russ about it, how much I know it pained her to go through that. Right there and then, I wished I could talk to her and comfort her but I couldn't because i Knew that she won't talk to me.

I wish I can be a better sister than what I am now and I know, this is the time to start.