Enough Is Enough (No More Tears)

So, Russ was away for the last weekend on a business trip to Seattle and look what he got me!!!! 

Grey's Anatomy Scrubs!!!

 *Ignore the mess, we are going to move out soon thus the craziness!

Hhahaa, I know Calvin will love this too but that was the last set and it was Large!! But I give Russ extra brownie points for remembering what I like and getting it for me (this was a total surprise, unlike the rose incident.. hahahahah). 

 

There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless. And all we want, is more.

 *Edited at 4:30pm

I just read about a girl committing suicide over her broken relationship with her boyfriend. I went to the Facebook page created by her friends in memory of her and I cried going through her pictures. I don't know her personally but I cried for her pain because I can relate to it. If a broken relationship is really what caused her death, I wished that she didn't do it. My close friends know that I went through a really difficult and tough time 2 years ago and every time I think about it, I can still feel that pain. The saddest thing was, I almost took my life because of the failed relationship as well. If not for my best friends who stood by me, carried me through and was there every step of the healing process (and T, whom I knew through her blog and me randomly writing to her... I wrote about her few entries back), I don't think I would be where I am today. 

I don't think anyone could really understand the pain that the girl must have gone through. In the news article, the media mentioned that the girl blogged about her fearing that she might not be able to love again... All of which, the exact same things... I've told my friends. I wished that she was stronger though and that she had looked for someone to talk it through and most of all, I wished that she didn't take her life away. Because, she would be able to see how beautiful her life would turn out to be without that person she thinks she love with her life & might in it. She will learned that despite the broken heart, the pain, the aching, the tears... Life is worth living. I loved that man with all my heart, all my might, with my life... he broke my heart, left me thinking that life is no longer worth living and that I can NEVER EVER love anyone else. I remember telling Calvin that after loving someone so much, I don't know how it would be ever possible to love someone else with such passion or the same, needless to say to love more. But I learned that it's possible. Because you love the new person with a different kind of love and you can love the person even more. 

CL told me (2 years ago) that one day when I look back at the things I've done, tears that I've cried, insults & injustice that I've put up with... everything... I will look back and laugh. Laugh at how stupid and silly I was. And when I told him I am in a new relationship, he asked me if I feel that way... I do. Honestly, I do. Even though I don't regret doing all those things that I've done, trying to get that man back in my life and trying to take my life away... But I do feel kinda silly. But I guess, that was part of the process... to get over a broken heart. And she who chose to do it, must have taken a lot of courage to. She left behind more broken hearts than she can imagine... I hope, the pain and hurt for her, is gone now. 

 Love, is not love if you have never experience heartache...  

Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head

Just a random update... Geez, I cannot even remember when all these things took place!
 Start spamming with my narcissistic images of what I wore... I'm really so proud of myself because I have been exhausting all the clothes I have and trying to wear the same thing a few times (which I never did in the past... I normally wear the same clothes probably months later!). Or probably because I only have those few pieces suitable for the cold weather? Hhahahaa


Week of 5th April - 9th April...

So... sometime last week, I dig out the box of instant ramen that I bought when I was transiting in the Narita airport during my last trip back to SG. Decided to cook it for dinner since it was going to expire soon.

Comes in 4 different flavour... Read it yourself.

We always have some random side dishes... in this case, Russ' favourite roast duck from Marina (Hahha nowadays when I buy food, I always imagine what Calvin might wanna eat when she visits!)

Not to forget the staples, random kind of Kimchi!!!

I love this top sooooooooo much although its really short and if I were to wear it with anything that's not high-waisted, my tatt will be revealed.

Sorry, my house lighting is too crappy and I'm using my iphone.. Hahha

The skirt below is different from what I'm wearing up there! But I know, can't tell... crap

Random pictures of flowers I took outside of the apartment... SPRING TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back to me...

Spammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

And Russ bought me a stalk of rose! He actually called me on his way home and ask me if I am hungry because he is going to buy me a rose and will be late for 10mins. Some kind of surprise huh?

Okkkkkkkkk, last picture!!! Taken yesterday... the weather was gorgeous... Or should I say, HOT?! We went to test drive a few BMWs (Russ did...even though I'm the one buying. Hahha) but I've more or less decided on what I want!

Save Me

So, this post is dedicated to my bro, CK because we were chatting online and I told him that I need to shit and he wants me to blog first. But anyways, I already shat so I'm blogging right now. HAHAHAHAH I know I am seriously the most disgusting girl around (Russ never fails to remind me) because I am very open about talking about shit, pee and what-nots.

Ok, so all these pictures are not in order 'cause I cannot really remember when I took them.

Took this while I was cooking curry for my colleagues... The tomato was in a heart shape when I cut it into half!

And we have a new addition to our house, Orchids! Russ likes them so I got it for him... Told you that he is a Singaporean at heart @@ The messy thing in the background is a computer that Russ set up for the TV and the LCD...

And we ate yummy ramen!!

Some random pictures...  I actually wore the zebra dress today. LOL
OH, we got a mirror!!!!!!!! Thanks to Russ' mama... she gives us everything, hahaha everyweek we'll go back to his house for dinner and steal things back to use. On another note, I think I'm really lucky because Russ' family is really nice to me. I think I've never hug my family members or anyone as much as his family!

Ok, now here comes the highlight of my weekend... We went to Carmel!! Which was gorgeousssssssssssss... I don't feel like I'm in the States at all and I kept telling Russ that its so European, as though I'm back in Paris!

On our way... the weather was great that day!!!

After a 1.5hrs drive, we got to Carmel!!!!

Serenity, doesn't this look like Cottesloe when we drove in???

Touristy shot...............

Russ loves his Havianas from SG!

Ok, I think I've put on weight again. FAT FACE ALERT.

I'm lazy so I'll post the rest of the pictures up on facebook!

The Self Destruct Button

 don't know what to write but I still wanna post an entry just for the heck of it....
Flood this post with my pictures... But then again, I haven't been taking pictures in the morning these few days as I've been taking a colleague's car to work instead of Russ'.

BTW, WASSUP WITH GREY'S ANATOMY?? I didn't watch it for a while and all of a sudden, there's all these new people in the show. Geez...

These are what I wore last week.... Anyway, I'm like trying to wear different clothes everyday to see if I can wear all the clothes I have (I have clothes that I wore like once or twice or NEVER!). So, let's see if I can keep up with that...

Man, my proportions look weird in this photo... But the point is, look at how I tied my scarf... I learned it from my favourite website. I know you can't really tell how it's like in the picture but compare it to the other picture where I have the same leopard print scarf in a different color. Hahaha

Man... I have been wearing this pair of boots to death. Its soooooooo comfortable and great looking.

Took this in the toilet because I didn't take a picture in the morning... I was wearing purple thighs!

Did I mention that I cooked fish curry and it turned out to be a huge success? I'm so freaking proud of myself.

This prata is for Russ... He loves prata (I think he is a Singaporean at heart).

Our dinner...

Fish curry... Just because it's sooooooooooooooooooooo good.

Made stewed pork ribs with carrots... Originally wanted to make soup with the ribs but because we slow-cooked it, it became too oily so I drained out the soup and added soy sauce, sesame sauce and dark soy sauce.

And lastly... Had steak on Monday night while watching Gossip Girl! =)

Ok, Its 5:37 and I can't wait to go home. WHY IS TIME PASSING SO SLOWLY???  Russ is going San Francisco tonight to meet up with some random people for drinks and what not. Wish I'm in Singapore right now so I can call Chewy to meet up at Tampines.

sigh...

p.s: wish me luck! We are trying to complete the apartment by this weekend because everyone has been asking us when they can come over. Need to get dresser, shoes rack, plants and hopefully we are done!

Oh OHOHOHOHO! Forgot to include these images (WE BOUGHT A BED!!! Tempur Pedic... Its been good so far but we'll see...since we have 100 days return policy)

CL, can you remember these bedsheets?!?!?!?!? You were with me at the John Little expo sale and helped me chose it!

We threw everything on the floor so we can put the bedsheets in... And you can see how the wardrobe looks like. We are sharing it now and it's barely enough to fit all my stuff. SIAN

It feels a bit weird sleeping on this initially cause the mattress mold into shape with your body but it's really comfortable after a while..

All set up and ready! It's funny cause when you buy a bed here, they give you a "box" and a metal frame for free... See that white/beige thing below the mattress? That's the "box" and it adds height to the mattress with the frame so you don't really buy a standard bed frame. I wanna get one cause I think it looks funny with a headboard and stuff but I guess I can wait since this works well now and we can get a proper frame if I decided to stay here for the rest of my freaking life..........................

Ok, so this is really the end of my random post. Oh.. and it's 6:09 already...going to bug Russ to bring me to get du buk ki AGAIN!